~ F!sh sCale's w0rld ~

2012-02-11T18:44:00.004+08:00

心情不好。。是没药医的。

做错事却又不懂真正错的是什么。。

懂了，结果是懂错了。

要懂又不能懂。。

总之是错了就对了。

什么都不懂！

什么都懂不了！

我觉得是小事，你觉得是大事。

我觉得是大事，你觉得是费事。

到底什么事？

想知道却没人肯耐心讲。

不明白也没人肯耐心解释。

笨的人！就是那么惹事！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

去死吧！！！！！！！！！！！

Hada Labo

2012-02-03T03:44:00.007+08:00

i heard + see this brand geh skin care products many many times jor..

well.. i heard many ppl said it is not bad xia~

and i saw Xia Xue posted a review abt this product also~~ hehee

macam very good je~

thus~~ i plan to give this product a try soon~~ ngek ngekk

wait until my cleanser finish.. then imma buy some products from Hada Labo!! hehehe

but then hor.. it is dam pricey lor.. =(

hope it is suitable for me lar~ hohoho

my skin is so dryyyy...

i nid a toner so dam much nowwww~~~

my skin need to breathhh~~~ xDD

hehehe

firstly, i shld buy the trial set siin bah?..

the 3 things in a box one..

hope it has discount by the time i wanna buy them~~ xp

den i will super happieeee~ ^^v

im so looking forward to try it soooooon~~~ ^_^

wheeee~~

suX !

2012-01-31T16:49:00.007+08:00

things tat i always wished not to happen.. happened.

WTH?!

den i should wished that.. don let me get 4.0 tis sem!

den i can get ad bah~~? huh? izit lyk tat?

what law of attraction is tis?

the more i don wan.. the more it happens!!

i m dam piss off !!

u noe wat is angry?

u noe wat is disappointed???

im so fcuking worry here ..

bcz i myself is a dam reliant person..

all no idea person being together.. will become wat?

shit!

ppl ad said don wan together.. still go together wid them..

i really duno wat will happen..

lata anth happen.. i really no eye see..

im so fcuking nervous, worry, tired and worry still..

keep seeing them doin the wrong thg..

still need to do work wid them..

don tell me no need to worry tis time..

im fainting soon ad..

haiz..

i really really don wan tis decision..

ta nai nai de..

sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!

do wat oso haf to care bt ppl's feeling.. wat abt mine?
i really don like don like don like don like don likeeeeeeeee....
continue say wan chg anth sure end up in argument..
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let me see improvements den i will stop complainin!
i don lyk at the end haf to complain bhind ppl and cant complain in their face!
tat sux !!

年。新

2012-01-27T01:26:00.002+08:00

睡前没个晚安.. 总是有点难睡..
看是看得多.. 听反而少之又少~ =p
没有恶意..
纯粹习惯~
现在.. 也就来被念了~ ~ ~
哈哈
那时候.. 已经是下个星期了.. 哇哈哈哈~~!!xþ

这个新年.. 还过得蛮充实地~
初 1 , 2, 3 .. 都是跟家人一起~
初四~ 就向了3 个朋友拜年~
其中一个.. 还是我很久很久没见了的朋友tim~
嘻嘻
开心到我~~~
总之是见到老朋友.. 我就一定会开心到暴~ ^^
我已经算是没怎么出去了..
闷了几天.. 终于今天 (其实已经是昨天了~ ) 做了一件我一直想做的事~
那就是 meet wid 傻婆梁尤燕 ~ 哇哈哈~
她越来越漂亮了哦~
失去联络那么久的小学好朋友竟然可以照样疯狂地谈笑~
真是难得难得~ =D

新的一年! 好的开始!
HUAT ARHHHHH!!!!!!

恭喜发财~
红包拿来~~~~~ xD

~_~

2012-01-06T14:59:00.002+08:00

my whole body is trembling..
keep feel like vomiting..
and i duno wat m i doing..
stuck wid comp.. building castle in the air..
widsom tooth is distubing me again..
and everything seems not right..
worry this worry that..
but none solution is being created..
the whole journey is like rocky roads..
n i duno whether u will walk along with me patiently or not...
thr are always alternatives.. but nobody will listen o even care to noe abt them...
haizz..

to-do-list

2011-12-10T22:02:00.005+08:00

1. try to make Dorayaki at home~ ^^ (cant wait!!) ✓

2. go short trip wid coursemates~ (Malacca! im coming again~ hehee) ✗

3. decide whether let the hair grow longer o cut it~ ✓

4. do FYP during sem break~ (as much as possible mm goii .. = =) @(ᵕ.ᵕ)@

5. ...

mari mari~~ ^^

2011-11-27T17:24:00.002+08:00

不爽，就立刻离开。

我也可以那样吗？

每个人都一样。

迟早都会离开到完吧？

担心

2011-11-24T23:39:00.005+08:00

该写些什么呢?~ hmm..

活在大学的生活里.. 我们算不算是 experience 着 FLOW 呢?~ o_O

一眨眼.. (老套话.. = = )

y1 s1 .. 已经变成现在的 y3s2 了..

是难过? 还是开心?

我根本不清楚..

说实话..

要考取很好的成绩.. 我没办到.. T_T

要交到很多朋友.. 嗯.. 有啊.. 可是.. 我到底是属于哪里的呢? 我.. 完全就是一个真人版的Floater.

真心的朋友.. 到底有几个?..

想说.. 要享受大学生活.. 可是.. 自己却让压力陪伴了全程.. 囧

结果? 两败俱伤。

什么都两头不到岸。

当时.. 带着兴奋+ 担心地来到这里..

现在.. 带着有点的兴奋 + 恐惧.. 准备着自己.. 要如何面对将来临的未来?

现在.. 还可以慢条斯理地 .. 毫无顾忌地度日~

但是.. 毕业过后呢??

我很害怕自己会 handle 不了很多事情..

看到朋友.. 一个两个.. 都会无端端发脾气..

这点小事.. 都不能忍.. 以后在社会上.. 能不忍么?

朋友不是比以后的同事更要好的吗?

有些人.. 为什么可以跟不熟的同事什么都不计较, 但却要和一起玩乐的朋友计较?

有些人.. 为什么可以对家人不仁不义, 可是却可以对朋友上刀山、下油锅?

难道.. 这就是所谓的不熟不吃?

咳......

这种小孩子脾气.. 没人可以帮得上忙..

惟有自救~

都几岁了.. 不能成熟一点吗?

虽然说.. 活在现在是最重要的..

可是.. 我还是 prefer 未雨绸缪~

这是我一路以来的习惯..

什么都先想好.. 先 plan 好..

到时候... 就不必那么慌乱了.. 不是吗?

其实.. 我想说的是什么.. 有人懂吗?

看得出吗?

恐惧。

我很害怕。

很多事情.. 我还是不敢去面对..

什么时候.. ..

我才会长大?

2011-10-28T13:47:00.004+08:00

u dunno i don lyk to be in a rush..?

rushing made me feel uncomfortable..

rushin made me cant breath..

and it made me feel like an unwanted thg..

i jealous of ur games.. i jealous of ur sport..

not tat i wan to band u from playin..

not tat i wanna be a controllin person..

i juz don see how u will so energetic too when i asked u to acc me to jog o sth..

those thgs can wake u from a totally exhausted sleep..

those thgs can make u ignore the fact tat u need to sleep..

those thgs can make u from tired into energetic state..

but i oni see u complainin u cant walk / tired..

i noe u drive till tired.. but i nv a person who like to shop like normal gal..

i juz wanna walk walk..

is tat too over?

^^

2011-10-24T12:54:00.004+08:00

Back to kampar's Life~ ^^

hmm.. tis is a nice bag tat i saw when gai gai wid my sis..
feel like bringin it home..
but then..
it will b an extra bag in my cupboard den.. @@
n it is not cheap lo.. ==

bought tis lil pouch home from Daiso~ hehe <3
first time bought things wid Philee~ hoho
we will sou gai alot if v go again nx time i think.. haha~
miss her now~ >?<

tadaaaa~!! my new baby in my home!
heard my mom said tat she sibeh cute now ad..
but still duno how to crawl ... yet..
she likes to play rough one..
n den she will laugh silly-ly~ lolx~
she very cute yi xia la~ ^^

yummy biscuit tat i love~ hoho <3

the sun LIGHT from the sky~
so nice~
but i duno how to capture this type geh photo one.. lolx
duno whether u can see it mao.. hehe
the internet line was so dam tis slow.. lolx
let me show u..
i haf to wait for 10hrs in order to dld one chap slides!! siao!!

my baobei tat acc me sleep~ hoho
view from my room~
got lake view one...... but far far away la.. ==
my lovely room~ hoho~
stupid speder eating the flying bug.. eww..
i hate spider!!
n i duno how they slip into my room!!!
gahh...
one big one on top of my bed thr de ceiling ar!!

T_T

hmm.......... OVERALL~
i m happie here ~ ^^
busy days is starting soon~
(shld say ad started bah?)
gah yao la!!
to hit my own goal!! hehe ^^v

烦啊

2011-10-06T17:49:00.005+08:00

不要来烦我啦！

去烦你该烦的人~

更高的。。我读不起。。

现在我只想快点赚多多钱。。

也许。。这是唯一我能够得到平静的方法。。

现实，真的很残酷。。

没钱。。就什么都万万不能！

只要没钱。。什么都能够拿来吵！

我不喜欢吵！

离开这里。。只是暂时听不到那些吵闹的声音罢了。。

说到底。。什么问题都其实还在。。

而且还会越来越多。。

学姐说。。我还年轻。。迟点我就会明白和看得开。。

一本书告诉我。。用爱来 overcome 恨。

何来容易？

家里的问题。。不是在于一个人的身上。。

而是在于沟通的方面。。处理得不好。

“ 好好地沟通、好好地交谈、好好地讨论。。。”

这一切。。难得难得。。

虽说可以讨论。。但往往。。事实不会是如此。

你知不知道。。妳的偏心。。我全都看到。。

而且还天天往我的心里割下去。。

越想忽略。。越在意。。

只要妳，一天不乱喊乱叫。。

大家的心情都该不会那么难受吧？

妳说。。这次回来。。

发觉我不再那么活泼、不再常带着笑容。。

妳，是否有想过。。为什么会这样吗？

妳是发觉了。。但，妳又做了些什么吗？

也许是我自己期望太多了。。

我希望不大。。

只想要大家能和睦共处，相亲相爱，和和气气、能够了解体谅大家。

总的来说。。还是得管好自己+ 做好自己先。 =/

怀念~

2011-09-19T18:26:00.009+08:00

三个月的实习。。就酱。。完了~

但是庆幸的是。。我还可以回去见见我的孩子们~

哈哈..

他们可是最天真.. 最真实的一群孩子~

去到那里.. 不必有防备心.. 因为他们不像得正常人般阴险..

也不会虚假对待..

猜测他们的时候.. 是因为他们不懂得表达出来.. 无法说话..

他们无法了解.. 我们认为最简单、最基本的常识~

虽然... 他们有时真的很调皮.. 很不听话..

但是.. 当他们乖乖地做东西的时候.. 真的很令人疼爱!

得明白.. 要他们学东西.. 是件多莫痛苦的事啊~

我真的很佩服很佩服 ECC 的老师们..

她们真的付出了很多的爱心与耐心去教导他们.. 培训他们..

孩子们从一开始的空瓶子.. 变成了装着各式各样珠子的瓶子~

这些特别的孩子们... 真的很需要大家的帮助~

我很希望.. 在我有能力的情况下..

尽量帮助他们~

我很enjoy 当volunteer 去照顾他们~ ^^

固定的 volunteer去照顾同一个孩子.. 是非常重要的..

只是.. 我可以不麻烦到老豆去载我上上下下么? =s因为.. 一个fix 的教学方式.. 对他们来说.. 是必要的~

该怎么办才能不麻烦到老豆.. 且又可以去 volunteer 呢? =/

想想下.. 我.. 到底以后要往哪个方向发展呢?

好贪心.. 因为我什么都想要..

什么都想尝试..

那样.. 我就可以知道.. 自己.. 到底最向往哪一个方向~ =)

但是.. 时间.. 好像所剩无几了.. >?<

救命啊啊啊~~~

我可爱的老师们~ & 4 Interns~ <3

其实阿.. 最开心的.. 是我没怎么照顾过的孩子.. 竟然认得我!!

实在是开心到要疯了~ ^^v

ECC gambateh!!~

幼稚

2011-09-02T13:55:00.002+08:00

原来对你来说.. 我是幼稚的..
有时候.. 那也只是拿来对话而已..
但我却没想到.. 原来我们将近没话题可言的地步..
我忘了你是高高在上的有经验的人..
我什么都不是..
我只是一个没脑、幼稚、什么都不懂的小子而已..
跟你说什么.. 我都变成了一个很幼稚的人..
最近.. 我发现.. 多数都是你在说你的故事..
滔滔不绝地讲..
可是当我告说你我的故事的时候..
你却给我一个感觉..
你没在听我说话..
或许我说话没你那么动听..
或许我说话没你那么喋..
或许你其实只是要跟我分享你的经验..
可是.. 为什么我却觉得几把刀飞了过来?
为什么.. 我会觉得你在蓝屎我?
为什么.. 当你告诉我.. 那句话的时候.. 我觉得你是在幸灾乐祸呢?
你.. 又变了吗？
为什么我觉得你说话前后矛盾呢?
你说为什么你的他一定要你过去.. 不可以等他得空才来咩?... 才说不久.. 隔天.. 你就跑去找他了..
我.. 无言了..
怎么你那么假?
你觉得.. 当母老虎知道后.. 她会比较反对你.. 还是会反对我?
乖没有错吧?
我尊敬她.. 所以问她一声..
但在你眼里.. 我这样做.. 是愚蠢的..
我.. 还没长大哦?
还是你们大人可怕?

真不明白。。

2011-09-02T01:38:00.003+08:00

真不明白。。
难道诚实。。也有错吗？
诚实。。就同等笨蛋么？？

真不明白。。
真不明白。。
真不明白。。

真不明白。。为什么你可以那么嚣张？
真不明白。。为什么你可以自认为了不起？
真不明白。。为什么你会认为每个人都应该屈服于你？
真不明白。。
真不明白。。
真不明白。。

==

2011-08-29T20:27:00.002+08:00

有时候.. 我真的很想变成一个左耳听.. 右耳出.. 的人..
但是我暂时做不到..
我害怕.. 当我习惯了这样时..
会变成一个连好的话.. 都没听进去..
那时.. 我就惨了..
还是老毛病.. 想太多了.. ==
haiz..

有时候..听又不是.. 不听也不是..
到底该怎么办?
以前.. 我的听觉是很灵敏的..
可是当我选择性地听东西后..
变成了一个连旁人说什么.. 我都听不到了..
因为习惯了不要听.. 结果.. 现在.. 要听.. 也难了..
只要专注自己在所做着的东西..
就算有人在旁边跟我说话.. 我都听不到的..
haiz..
也许这样说.. 很难以置信..
但事实就是这样..

该听的.. 就没听到..
不该听的.. 就统统都听进去..
zzz

无言。

为什么?

2011-08-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

为什么。。
当一个人有了男女朋友后都会变呢？
在另一半的面前表现得那么好。。
但其实真正的自己其实并没有那么的好。。
假假的好。。能耐多久？
你们两个。。都是一个重男女朋友多过家人的人。。
怎么一律以同等的态度去对待每个人会死么？！
我自己也有假假。。但我所假假的东西是。。
就算多莫不爽。。我都会假假不介意。。
就算多莫生气。。都假假没生气。。
至少。。我是真诚地对待每一个人。。

为什么。。
我说什么都欠说服力？
为什么。。
别人说你的不好。。我却保护不到你？
为什么。。
你一生气。。我就慌了？还是应该说。。无论谁生气。。我都会慌？
为什么。。
你的脾气那么硬？
为什么。。
就算吵了架。。不爽。。还是什么的。。都无法不 show 出来？
show 给对方知道就好了啊~
你知不知道我到底在害怕些什么？
不知道你是不是帮我生气他们？。。
但是。。 show 出来。。只会把一切变得更艰难。。 =((

为什么???
都怪自己笨!

无能。

2011-08-10T20:29:00.003+08:00

你不知道。。我会多么难做。。
我没办法同时间兼顾那么多人的感受。。
你。。是变了吗？
还是应该说。。你本来都是酱。。
为什么我常常都得害怕谁会生气？
为什么我常常都得害怕着下一秒会变成怎样？
我不知道你为什么会这样。。
我也不知道该怎么跟你说。。
如果我说。。你肯听吗？？
如果我说了。。你会生气吗？

w.t.h. why? think? hell?

2011-07-30T21:10:00.002+08:00

i think a lot.. yes i do..
since young i have been taught to think before i do anth..
bcz last time i used to do a thing first.. den oni think...
at the end..
i will kena watever consequences it might be..
kena cane.. kena scold like nobody's business ..
be the paku in the eyes of whoever he/she is..
SO..
i will think dam freakin lots b4 doin anth..
as a result.. i think too much?
so either way oso is not good?..
u tell me..
how oni is the best?
don think or think?
don tell me to think moderately.. i duno each person geh moderate level is kat mana!

u see.. whenever i think for other ppl..
i kena scold o bein said stupid o idiot..
when i don care..
i will be said as selfish..
so how ?

n....
i will angry..
i do know wat is angry..
so don make me angry..
don tell me i don haf pi qi..
so.. i wun angry..
pls la.. im human oso k?
when u r too over.. i will angry..
but .. when i angry.. can someone at least pls take it seriously? >?<
haizzz..

n..
i don understand y..
ppl seems like don respect me at all..
for example..
i took my lappy somewhr to fix it..
i talked to a person in charge tat help me wid it most of the time..
BUT.. he will still go n talk to my mom or sis to explain watever happen to my lappy..
dam it! the owner is here ok?!
u tell them.. they oso tak tau apa-apa punya la.. deng..
im not a small kid ok?!
wtF!!
altho not oni him will do tat..
many ppl normally will ignore me oso..
well... u can imagine..
when me n my sis together..
we go to a place together..
normally.. ppl will serve her n not me...
im not attractive.. i know..
and im even short!
so.. im not like a normal grown up girl...
so.. i will always be treated like a kiddo?
who say short is not a problem?
u wanna try to be me see see how will tat feel?
den oni u come n tell me short is nth..

be confident?
well.. i tried..
n im scare to be confident..

i haf no faith in myself..
i look down on myself.. tats y others will oso look down on me?

conclusion..
i worry too much? ..

I DONT KNOW.

烦_烦"

2011-07-11T22:15:00.005+08:00

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烦

除了烦。。还是烦。。

report 那边。。
一个不错大问题。。

fyp 那边。。
西北大问题。。
她认识我~ 我不认识它~
哦我天!!

do sth tat interest me?
ahem.. wat i wanted to noe..
is sth cant be found in any journals on9 for free ..

so...
i listened to my senior..
do sth tat i can get resources easily..

so..
im chging to a topic tat is quite normal 到不行..
but im afraid tat my topic will clash wid precious senior o sth..
which i nid to go search for it at uni library nx sem?
too late le bah?!
week 1 nid pass up the proposal ad.. whr got such time to do tat?
except.. i go back kampar live for a month b4 uni starts..
possible? ==

i found many journals... but they were mostly irrelevant to my topic..
how?
take them as references oso? T_T
im begging u.. my dear brain..
pls work sth DAM FREAKIN EASY out plzzz~

im dam nervous... ='(

why　why　why??

2011-07-09T18:21:00.005+08:00

想说..
在家里越久.. 越不开心..
越多约束.. 越不开心..
haiz..

想说..
为什么没人惹你... 你也会在那边发脾气?
为什么你被责问 wrongly.. 他们却还会跟你说一声那是他们怪错了..?

我呢? 我不是人么?
怎么我被骂错了.. 被责怪错误..
都没人来向我道歉? 都没人帮我说话?
有事情的时候.. 就跟我投诉.. 问我这个那个..
没事的时候.. 就把我当作废的..
你那个他妈的宝贝儿子.. 怎样的烂态度跟你说话.. 都 mao 问题..
怎样凶你.. 也不会骂..
最多等到有事情发生了.. 才骂到好像要世界大战酱..
那样还不止.. 还害买其他人无辜受罪..
没事都要被骂一顿..
前世欠了你的吗?!
鸡蛋糕

想说..
你那样gok hei..
结果本来高血压的你.. 更加向老人家般.. 血压高.. ==
还要骂你的人服侍你..
我看到都想送你几拳!! wtF!!
明明两方都有错..
明明你不该没大没小地跟大人说话..
明明那样你就是很错了..
偏偏.. 她还帮你骂他..
要是当时的对象是你的朋友.. 或.. 你的女友..
你一定不会那样对他们!
要是你的女朋友看到你真正的态度..
要是你的女朋友看到你怎样对家人..
要是你的女朋友看到你那霸道大少爷的脾气..
看她还会留在你身边吗?

每当看到别人fat lan za..
我的心情就会超级无敌差!!
尤其是那些为了无聊没用的原因而在那边 fat lan za 的..
看了更火滚..

为什么..
你、她、他、她、他.. 都可以 fat lan za..
就只有我不可以 fat lan za?!?
什么都不可以!!!
argh!!

2011-05-26T10:48:00.002+08:00

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pk jz now.. nth much.. juz tat the big toes numb liao yi xia.. =="
juz stepped on the floor that was jz being mopped..
(it was quite wet.. got lil water/soap.. idk..)
and it gaf me a free "skate" .. = =
if i get to knock my head..
will i lost some memories?
can i throw some memories by tat way?
and oni remain those happie one's~
can i restart my brain?~
can i totally empty up my brain ?
so tat better info/memories can be inserted..?
haizzz...
nv fall b4.. mana will learn things rite?
but .. i really hate tat..
it really gave me a great phobia...
i stay away from sth.. sth oso stay away from me..
great.. wth.. =="
how u treat me.. i will treat u back the same way..
may be better.. or.. may be worst~
depends on how i feel...
when i care too much... i tend to lose sth..
when i do not wan to care much.. i probably goin to lose sth oso..
things juz don seems to stay wid me for long..
and .. im protecting myself from the feeling of losing sth? maybb..
no wonder i cant trust.. bcoz u cant trust either..
u don feel safe.. i don feel safe either..
u juz don trust tat i wun simply laii..
y don i juz simply laii? .. since.. thr's no trust oso..
wat's the difference?
things always being discussed over words..
but nth will b discussed when ftf..
i don understand y....
and it doesnt seems to be better from time to time...
wat's wrong wid me ?? i really dunno..
if i noe myself more.. mayb.. u will b able to understand more bt me..
but.. i don even noe myself..
wth..

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so in ♥ ....

2011-05-18T18:45:00.004+08:00

so in ♥ wid BROS' water bottles~ =þ
hohoho..
the 1st BROS water bottle tat i had is a bottle wid main wording of "FOCUS"..
it remind me to focus... focus ... n focus~ xD
whenever dreaming in class.. my fren would show me my bottle..
to ask me to be FOCUS!
and i will hug it to continue my class.. lolx..
instead of jotting down some notes..
yes...
i date wid my bottle in class.. xDD

♥ ♥ ♥

the reason i so in ♥ wid BROS' bottle is bcoz the water will never leak out when i simply throw it into my bag~ ^^
it is very frustratin to noe tat ur bag is wet.. bcoz of ur stupid bottle..

i got a 700ml BROS bottle..
and lately..
i added another family member.. that is of 1000ml geh~ hoho

i like to browse their website..
to look see look see..
and eventually..
those bottles attracted me to get them...
lolx.. (HOWEVER.. i haven buy them yet .. so far =s )

♥ ♥ ♥

share some bottles tat i think is pretty de wid u all bah~ ; )

tis one has a nice body shape~ xpp

tis one has my fav unicorn!~ ♥

tis one is the prettiest among its series~

and tis lil one.. is oni 350ml..
it's cute..
and i wanna get tis one..
so tat i can bring it out when i go shopping or anth~
hoho..
it wouldnt b very heavy~
nice~ ^^

♥

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2011-05-10T07:15:00.003+08:00

most guy.. oso so insensitive de o ?
signaling.. duno..
direct meanin.. duno..
hidden meanin.. sure duno..
den wat oni noe ? =="

do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u're quite/very a******g?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me quite/very fr********g?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me sp******ss?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me s*d?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me feel like killin myself?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me feel tat im a l***r ?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. im lost.. i duno wat u wan.. i duno wat i wan..
it's dam freaking frustrated! bcoz u never wan to respond!
it's either.. "i duno wat to respond" .. "wat u expect me to say?" or "don wanna say liao" ..
running from reality?
don wanna solve them?
den continue argue bah liao..
or wait till one day.. when im tired of waiting.. u slowly argue wid urself oni..

i.. will feel tat im bad now.. bcoz u ad more rajin tis sem.. a bit..
n u prob will say tat i keep pressure u for nonsense..
o watever.. i really duno..
bcoz u lazy to say.. =="
how would u expect me to noe everyth?
o nth's actually is tat important izit ?
i .. really duno..

shld i start practicing back wat i used to b?..

a loner... ?

p.s: btw.. the msg that i posted to u ytd.. it was oni visible to u.. and nobody can sees it.. but u even lazy to reply o lazy to find out wat actually it was abt.. u doesnt care anymore.. are u?

fantastic.. im all alone wid questions tat will not haf answers..
great..

and .. u prob wun see tis until duno when.. =/

i dunno... duno dunooo.. dunnnoooo..

2011-04-30T17:37:00.003+08:00

i dunno how to handle stress.. how m i goin to handle other ppl?
fyp.. hvn confirm my topic...
the lecturer in charge.. is new to fyp thingy..
shit lo?!
gg.com liao lo?!
proposal format arhhh.. when can v noe ? ..
what topic shld i do now?.. >?<"
i cant find journal for the topic i want...
shld i juz do on death related stuff? o personality?..
sobz.. fan ah fan ah fan ah............
the person that i dont wanna get the most..
is in charge of my fyp thingy.. walao eh..
law of attraction eh? >?<
things that u don want the most.. will come to u..
oh greatttt.. =="
WTH!!!

finals period now.. one paper down..
5 more to go.. tamade..
tis sem is making me go crazy...
i don wanna juz a pass.. i wanna a higher higher higher gradesSs~

* i wish i could.. T_T *

tis few days... bok sai lou meng dou youu dok sai koi ahh~~~
stress can make me do better i guess..
but it is DAM FREAKING torturing..
gratz to me! =____="

一点点.. 不开心..

2011-04-29T04:42:00.002+08:00

一点点的浪漫.. 不会被嫌弃多余的..
有谁.. 会不喜欢浪漫? 可是.. 到底.. 什么是浪漫??

一点点的惊喜.. 不会费太多的力气..
没有惊喜.. 会是更大的惊喜.. 只是背后.. 多了个锤子.. 时时刻刻提醒自己.. 别妄想了..

一点点的改变.. 不会计较是否太慢..
只是在乎于.. 是否真心地在改..

一点点的体谅.. 难到很难给吗?
怎么会觉得.. 就算说了千万次.. 也没有一个人明白呢?

小小的一个动作.. 都会被发现.. 到底是正常还是.. 不正常..
但.. 那也是从前的事了..

小小的一个念头.. 都会被猜到.. 就算有时死都不肯认.. 但其实.. 那很惊喜..
但.. 那也是从前的事了..

小小的东西.. 都会被察觉.. 其实.. 那是很开心的事..
但.. 那也是从前的事了.. 时间久了.. 习惯了..
一切都变得不重要了?

为什么.. 明明就是小事.. 但却不能冷静的解决?
明明可以开心地一起想办法.. 一起讨论.. 一起决定.. 但却变成了吵架的收场?
礼让.. 变成霸道.. 再变成当你没到..
尊重.. 跑去哪里了?

很多的疑问句...
但.. 却都不会有真诚的答复..
想说.. 有什么好说的?
... ...
那就继续疑问下去好了..

累。

2011-04-07T23:08:00.001+08:00

江山易改，本性难移。
再多的期望...也只会换来更大的失望… >﹏<
好的时候很好..
不好的时候超不好 ..
我.. 快疯了啦!!
别逼我做到 ..
只专心在学业上，其他的.. 一律忽略掉! 的那种程度.. >ω<"

Tired......

某名...

2011-04-05T17:01:00.003+08:00

忙的时候.. 嫌时间少..
忙完过后.. 适应不来..
突变的状况.. 这个 sem 尝了许多..
见了许多.. 不同的一面..
看了许多.. 不曾看过的..
听了许多.. 不同的意见/看法..
试了许多.. 不曾尝试的..

[争吵.. 辩论.. 讨论.. ]
都算是沟通的方式.. 只是.. 用法不一样而已..
outcome 也会因此而不一样..
我不喜欢争吵.. 也不喜欢辩论..
只想要好好地讨论一切..
有时.. 我会非常固执.. 有时.. 我会完全失去自己的坚定..
有时.. 无论我如何努力地去了解别人所说的.. 我都无法明白..
我需要的.. 是一个肯耐心地解释给我听的人..
好让我不会觉得自己是个废才.. 是个笨蛋.. 是个没用的人..
可惜.. 这种感觉一直都在..
可惜.. 没人能懂得这种感觉..
我很讨厌这种感觉..
我很讨厌因此而被忽视..
我很讨厌因此而被骂..
我很讨厌因此而 feel alienated..
我甚至.. 讨厌自己.. 生气自己..
几时.. 我所做的.. 会被肯定?

为什么.. 我会觉得.. 某名的寂寞?
为什么.. 我会觉得.. 某名的孤单?

为什么??? ...

がんばって

2011-03-14T16:05:00.002+08:00

近来几天。。都是4 / 5 点才睡。。
就算早一点睡。。
也会因为担心 asgmnt 而睡不着。。 ==
赶啊赶。。熬呀熬。。
终于。。
剩下2 科 asgmnt 还没碰。。 >?<"
还有两个星期要熬~
拼啊！~~~

后天。。一个 presentation~
大大后天　presentation + asgmnt due date~

之后嘛。。就可以好好准备做 prom nite 的东东了。。
还有得完成 japanese asgmnt~ + presentation ~

一切快点搞定吧~
我想早点开始温习耶~
还是别plan 比较好。。
plan 了多数会 fail 掉。。
plan 早点睡或睡多点比较好。。
hoho..
那样。。我就可以做别的东东噜~　xDD

大家がんばって哦~　^^

gan jiong week~

2011-02-20T16:33:00.008+08:00

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hmm...
thr's a ~~huge~~ list of things to do.. 囧
eek..

THIS week:
1 o 2 csl sessions to b recorded..
+
japanese Quiz 2~
+
pre abnormal psy mid term
+
meeting
+
asgmnt thingy~
+
treasure hunt activity report~

wat else wat else?? =s

FIND a place for internship A.S.A.P!!!
else GG liao!! >?<"
juz called to ask..
bcoz email seems doesnt help much..
i waited till neck long jor still no reply eh..
i really hope they will call me back..
faster call me back pls~
i wanted it very much~
i wish to learn psy practically thr~
plz grant me a chance mm goii~ ; (

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T_T

2011-02-01T13:24:00.003+08:00

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was dam happie.. bcoz i got myself a cute princess fon~ ^^

was dam sad.. bcoz of my stupidity in recognizing roads.. i tot i can handle it.. but hu noeS.. i cant.. somethin im not familiar wid.. once didnt revise.. i'll forget for sure..

DAM! =(

was excited.. bcoz cny is coming soon.. but duno yyyy...
suddenly moody liao.. x [

was in pain.. bcoz duno wat i wan.. duno how to talk.. duno how to tell wat i wan.. say watever oso seems wrong.. do watever oso seems wrong.. im not confident tat wat i do is correct anymore..
all the while im not confident oso bahh.. so no diff.. x [

was worry bout FYP n industrial trainin..

feels like smashin my heart into pieces..
so tat i can never feel any pain anymore.. T_T

am tired........
as i hope thr will b a support for me..
but it seems thr's not..

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2011-01-28T02:03:00.002+08:00

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i said i will nv tell anymore..
but i told..
bcoz i promised u b4..
to tell o not to tell?..
if tell.. i duno how to say..
if i don tell a single thing..
i will oni continue keep it..

yu ling u SUX!

dam.
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+ u lorh~

2011-01-22T21:28:00.002+08:00

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tis one is really very effective..
lolz~
it's cheaper than Biore's one..
& can remove alot of blackheads one eh~
haha..
(in my opinion la~)

wondering got any other better ways not?~ =/
someone used it once den fell in luv wid it jor~
wakaka!!

tis sem nid to learn Japanese jor~
hoho~
luckily memorizeddd bit during the sem break~
else.. sure GG!
hoho~^^

ahem..
well..
below is one ang mo ppl tat i gap quite long wid my bf..
lolz!!
honestly.. he is OLD.
BUT..
he is dam leng zaii~
wahaha~
and he knew we gap him too~ =s
but hu cares~~~ xþ

y ang mo ppl wear coat so yeng one???~ @_@

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*******
eek.. tis sem is gonna be a super bz sem..
tough tough~ >?<"
add oil bahh everyONE!~ ^^

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^^V

2011-01-16T01:54:00.002+08:00

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wuhooo~
*15.01.2011*
today is my happie day~ ^^♥

wheeee~~~~

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hate me.

2011-01-12T01:56:00.002+08:00

u juz don understand..
or u'll say it's me who don..
hate me den..
im stupid in dealing wid things..
u don wanna listen..
fine.
i wun tell u anymore.
if tat's wat u wan.
since tat's so fan..
i'll oni tell u good things den..
sry tat sharing wid u is a trouble to u..
im not gonna share anymore!

photos from memory land~

2011-01-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

the lil prince n princess in my hse..
have alot of toys..
alot till...........
can be used to sell to other ppl like wat toys shop selling~
lolxx..
tis is consider oni tiny part of the toys.. ==

my long ~~lost~~ din contact de cute fren~
miss the time when v share secret together~ =((
u got skip meals till gasrtic lagi ma? =/

aww..

low B stuff tat 3 gals did at kampar when over too bared..
erm.. last last yr?
lolx.. xDD
fav snack during lec/tutorial classes~
ngekk ngekk~
eek..
miss tis..
long time nv touch ad..
2 diff acc = me n my bro's acc.. xpp

tis will happen when u play wid crazy frenz.. =="
they were dam chi gekk..
mayb even sot sot deii..
look carefully at the LOWER part of the stack wooden thingy..
siao one.. play till so senget n cacat-ed..

tiba-tiba~
found my chem report done durin sec..
haha..
i miss oni the time when we all can play wid the chemicals~
hoho~
i saw tis fish~
and inside its mouth.. thr's another small lil fish~
i told someone excitedly..
but kena pour cold water..
hmm..
i never see b4 ark~ >?<"
so ma happy till wan share lo..
lyk tat oso zZz..
haiz..
tis is our lou yan ga in our group~
ngek ngekk~
rmb to pay us pocket $$ on time o~ xpp
2 siao ppl in my room..
hahaHAHA~
i bet u duno i took tis~
ngekk~
all bz play own stuff.. =="

uncle nic cut till so short for the 1st time~
haha..
who ask u showed to me~ xpp
so called family photo.. =="
for fren's asgmnt..
lmao.. xD

hmm..
seems lyk time passed so fast..
in a glimpse..
~~we are all getting older jor~~~
u all are getting older jor~ =pp

many things are different ad oso..
i wish..
everth is diff to a good side~~~

sniff sniff..

2011-01-07T19:14:00.003+08:00

ah ciuuuuuuuu~

wat next??

ah ciuu~! oso..

walao eh.. >?<"
san fu dou..
how come suddenly kena flu one?..
weather out of sudden too cold?
bcoz sis who sleep bside me havin flu?..
aduii..
i don like flu eh..
make me feel like a very sick ppl.. zZz
seng san guat tao tong.. >?<"
mou gam larrrr~
i wan healthy healthy one eh~

planned to go MV walk walk alone..
mana tau?.. juz woke up jek..
water keep flowin from nose.. =___="
and.. my bro was still sleepin!!
sienZ..
no other way to let me go thr..
my "sun fong che" was sleepin..
gouu liii..

sobzZz.. TT____TT

let me recover mm goii~!! =((

2011-01-02T14:23:00.002+08:00

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happie new year ~~~ =D

looking forward to uni reopening lo~

hmm..

ciaoz~ ^^ v

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2010-12-31T00:22:00.002+08:00

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2o11~ 我期待您的到来~
新的一年~
plz 一切都美好~
mm goii saii~ 0rz

=s

拜托拜托~

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2010-12-30T18:47:00.002+08:00

何谓“假期”？
我想要的假期。。竟然是一个人静静的假期。。
abo.. 就是跟朋友出去走走下~ 还是什么的..
目的? 休息~ 轻松一下~
不过.. 现实却不会如你所愿的~
eek..
总觉得.. 在家里..
更 stress .. >?<"
够力..

有时.. 发白日梦..
有时.. 想些有的没的..
haiz..
更讨厌的事是..
那恶梦般的过去.. 一直挥也挥不去..
不知是它缠着我..
还是..
我缠着它.. = (
发生了的.. 又不可能叫它别发生..
argh!!
为什么你出现?
为什么我成全?
笨!
一个巴掌拍不响!
怎么说.. 自己始终也是有错..
没阻止........
不知道为什么..
就是很不好受.. >?<"
我恨 x x x !! =/

T___________T

haizZz..

我知道.. 有个人.. 又要骂我了.. >?<"
可是.. 我真的不懂该怎么办..
才不会那么放不过自己.. =(

2010 毕之时... 请带走一切让我痛苦的事~

*~ 毕 ~*

摘自fb..

2010-12-22T01:15:00.002+08:00

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她其实有点懒，喜欢赖床。她其实不太乖，喜欢捣蛋。

她独立，也好强，她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿意向别人提起。

但其实骨子里，渴望有一个避风港湾，让她去依靠。但她不会承认。

她必须确定那个人是否可以承受得了这一切的，承受她的撒娇、她的无理取闹，她的倔强，她的悲观，她所有的性格缺陷且永远不离不弃。

只有这样，她才放心，可以放心去继续做自己，不会害怕有一天将要面对失去。如果没有，那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独。

她对爱情没有安全感，也不会给别人安全感.

她爱不起，更怕伤害。她一定要对方先流露出对她有好感，她才散发她的热情。她爱的永远是对她最好的那个，那个好她心里是有一个标准的，你的积分超过了那条线，她会爱上你，但大多数人没超过线之前就离开了，或者超过了之后没等她看到就离开了。

其实她要的并不多，她要的只是一个温暖的家。对她来说太重要了，虽然在她们口中说出来的却是:我不需要爱情。

当你紧张他的异性朋友,她会一面跟你说，他只是我的谁谁谁，却一面偷偷在意你的感受。她会希望现在的他是怎样怎样的，有各种各样的挑剔苛求的条件，她只不过是想要一个用努力来证明爱她的人，她不求结果，只希望你有那份心。

对她们而言，唯一具备杀伤力的只有感情，感情如果受到挫折，会毁了她，要么成就了她。从此更加漠然，专注于事业。

她分手后完全不会像其他坐在人面前要死要活，她嬉笑怒闹，变得更加开朗，在听到朋友说有关他的话题时，从不刻意回避，她适当参与，淡然微笑，她的表现总会遭人怀疑这段感情的深浅，而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见她背后的眼泪和努力。她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣，除非她真的崩溃了。

即使在你爱着她的时候，她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。

如果你看到她的眼泪，请相信这绝不是她在博取同情，这是她这样一颗内心骄傲的女子不得己的场景。她想对你负责，对她负责，对自己的过去和未来负责，但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言，她很难相信。

即使她很难相信，但她还是会选择等待。

她的伤初始浓烈似酒，很快就会变为一杯水，却让水渗入生活成为点点滴滴.她选择在其中淡定，在其中沉默和内伤。

她就是这样，强势，霸道。任性……不会讨人欢心，死要面子，她爱朋友多过你。

她善变，最耐不住寂寞却又喜欢假惺惺的让自己一个人呆着。

有时候她又充满阳光的气息，爱笑爱说话，活蹦乱跳，可爱迷人。

她很自私，只愿意与人同甘，不愿意让别人跟她共苦。

她的家庭不一定很是富裕，但她都是习惯了养尊处优。

她喜欢热闹，总会成为聚会的焦点，前提是她想。

她也享受孤独，会静坐在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐。

她也会一整天呆在房间里心情压抑低落，但第二天一早起来，又会轻轻松松的打理一切，慌慌忙忙的拽着大衣拎着包往外冲。

她习惯在人前表现的很坚强，一付大女子主义的模样。她会想，遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人，她就一定就会很安静，心甘情愿的安静下来，不烦，不闹，按时吃饭按时睡觉，按时做一切能安心和他一起做的事情。她从不轻言爱，她的爱很沉默，那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气，在她的心里有一道栅栏，那就是自尊。

她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊。

她会在真正爱她的人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装，做个幸福的小女人，她不要求你要做什么，不会无理取闹要你陪着她，她有自己的生活，她给你空间因为她也需要空间.

她在你面前永远性感调皮，偶尔撒撒娇，跟你玩陌生人的游戏，在你的朋友面前从来大方得体，微笑的依偎在你身边。她不让你给她买这买那，但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗自开心，因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱。

她在意的是你的心，你若真心，她必然实意。最起码你得表现的真心,能让她感觉得到。

终有一天,她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见，她的倔强被你的保护软化，她的伪装在你面前被轻易识穿。　

得到她，别骄傲，只有懂她的人，才会得到她的好。她有时是有些迟钝的，在感情方面，但有时很敏感，因为她在乎……

如果你没有绝对的真心，请别爱她，因为她最怕没安全感，害怕失去平衡……

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多数都是我的感想。。。

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2010-12-17T22:18:00.004+08:00

天真地以为。。我比它重要。。
原来我不是。。
如果先问我还好不好？
我也不会那么伤心。。
竟然一个死鬼游戏比我还来得重要。。
算了。。
游戏会让人疯掉。。是真的。
就算是因为天气让我觉得不舒服。。
也可以问候下的吧？！
@!$#$^#$^&$^%&%#

adolescence nowadys.. =="

2010-12-14T02:21:00.002+08:00

wat i learnt in ADOLESCENCE PSYCHOLOGY..
is related to wat i saw lately in FaceBook.. =="
most of the thing is stated in AP lo..
for example..
female is more likely to ATTEMPT suicide..
while male is most likely to SUICIDE BY LETHAL MEANS..
in FB ----> Alviss kong suicide case.. >?<"

adolescence like to be on stage~
thus they cr8 pages to attract ppl's attention?
today got a guy... is planning to suicide..
and the way he suiciding..
is totally "copycat suicide".. ==
altho duno the person really will go suicide anot..
he is counting down one day.. b4 suciding..
i guess his family o wat-so-ever frenz sure will get to him n stop him le bah..
hello..
sucide is not a game tat u can play eh...
don simply say wan suicide k?

altho most of us will say..
" I FEEL LIKE DYING AHH!! TODAY SUX!!"..
tat one is juz a way to release stress?..
after say out to frenz.. o shout out..
one will feel better...
at least frenz arnd will comfort xia u.. ^^
den everyth will turn better.. rite?~

i really duno how to deal wid this kind of ppl eh.. >?<"
shld not treat tat as a joke..
but somehow..
ur heart is telling u..
he is juz making fun of the internet to get popular..
lolz..
hope he wun go suicide la..
and his parents shld slap him GOU GOU LI...
to wake him up.. zzz
don teach bad things to de kids la.. aduii..
somebody!! pls wash those ppl's brain..

*~ eNd ~*

week 7?

2010-11-29T16:16:00.003+08:00

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went back to KL for few days last week..
not bad la..
i had a kind of feeling.. which is..
i feel like im a princess every time i went home..
lolz..
bcoz watever i wan i oso can get one..
and whenever my dad purposely back from work to see me before i leave KL..
i feel soooooooo warm~~~ ^^
the bad things is..
every time oso rush here n thr one.. =x
like the time is soo sooo soooo dam limited.. zZz
altho sem break looks longer~
but .. still.. the time seems not enuf..
eek..

i like window shopping..
bcoz it doesn't cost much time..
and i only will spend time at one place when i see sth that catches my attention~
haha..
b4 buying more things for myself~
i better focus more on my study siin..
den oni think how to reward myself~
hehee..
IF.. i did not do well this time..
or..
did not do a lot better..
den i'll punish myself.. including YOU. ^^
berat dan ringan sama di-carry~ xþ

hmm..
first time went to shop n hunt for present for frenz wid parents..
it's kinda weird u noe?..
especially when u wanna buy present for ur bf / gf.. >?<"
they even helped me think wat to buy..
lolxx..
they suggested.. shirt? necklace? urm..
duno wat else..
but u juz bought shirts.. and u so...... therefore.. no shirt~ xpp
necklace.. u oso tak pakai one..
suan le bah..
ma fan punya ppl.. =="
at the end.. . .. .. . .. ..
i still THINKING! wat to buy.. zZz
u don put too high hope ba..
later disappointed den u zap sang la ha~ =s
don kill me later~
warn xiia u 1st.. wakaka~ xDD

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anyway..
seeing hsemates are now like doesnt really wan to care wat happen to de hse..
it's kinda disappointed..
take things for granted too much ad?..
o juz tat it really not a big problem tat everyone shld be cared of? ..
i noe everyone do not like problems..
but it's not fair to throw the existing problems to some other ppl without even caring how does it goes..
or don even noe wat happen..
arent we suppose to cooperate to solve the problems together?
some problems .. we need to settle them by oneself..
some we need to settle them together..
don be the one who only noe how to find other ppl to help when the problem is related to oneself..
it doesnt harm to take initiative to do some things..
haizZz..
or .. mayb..
im juz too sensitive.. =/

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*~ eNd ~*

aikz..

2010-11-20T23:34:00.003+08:00

im slowin down ad..
eek..
tis is not good..
but.. thr is not enuf energy for me to continue.. =/
im sad..
and i don like the feeling of unable to do anth..

whenever think of "sun zhi"..
my mood will drop from the highest point into a big hole!!
why the heck do we nid to learn 孙子兵法?!
i don mind to learn it.. IF AND ONLY IF thr is a good better best lecturer!!
thr is no other lecturer that cant teach tat subject ad izit?!
why let him teach us??!
can u imagine..
someone is talking to u for two hours per week..
by direct translating the chinese words into english?!
it's dam torturing u noe?
some more.. the way he explain.. is juz bulat bulat from slides..
mayb im stupid and slow to direct translate back wat he is talking abt..
but.. but... BUT.. i really jip sao mm dou lor! >?<"
kill me ba liao..
i did paid full attention to wat he was teaching..
but then.. tat really cant work..
i tried again.. but??.. failed!!
especially when he was showing the movie clip o watever..
it's hard for me to catch wat the movie abt..
i wonder how those students (who do not know how to read chinese words or those non chinese) are going to understand the movie clip.. =="
it's in mandarin conver.. without the eng subtitle..
waliao ehh..
someone.. pls save me from this torturing ~~subject~~ lecture(R).. T_T

monday is the mid term for sun zhi..
and i really duno how easy tat will be..
according to him.. he said v can score all correct one la..
let's see how i die for it.. zZz

the kanasai asgmnt not even started yet..
im so dam gan jiong..
mayb i shld try the way..
by telling myself..
" segalanya baik " xDD
lolz!!
i learnt this from a movie --> "3 idiot"
it's a nice indian movie..
honestly..
haha.. go watch it if u haf the time to do so~
it's meaningful~^^

one of the thing tat the main actor is doin was..
learning for wat he wanted to learn..
and not learning to get the best grades..
he was a genius in that movie..
so.. i cant follow like wat he did..
i only can study hard.. in order to learn wat i wanna learn...
and also "sun bian" score to hit my target..
tat's all.. =/
haizz..

im half disappointed wid my asgmnt tis time..
i cant blif it..
i jip sao mm dou oso..
prove to me that u are not this careless most of the time..
show me that u are doin it seriously..
or else.. i do not wan this kind of work..
i do not wan groupmate tat do not accept suggestions..
don take wat u're not competent in and do it..
tat will juz ruin the whole thing..
u can try to do it.. even u do not know how..
by learning how to do it..
by asking ppl how to do it..
by improving the way how u deal wid it!

when i get frustrated and stressed up..
i could hardly calm myself down..
i couldnt do my work properly..
i'll even fatt lan za..
better stay away from me tat time..
oni one ppl will noe i sth wrong bahh..
at the end haf to help me zap dao meii tim.. lolz
tQ!! heheeee... xpp
b4 this.. i tot .. this time.. i do not finish my asgmnt last min anymore..
but hu knows?..
the fact is..
i finished my own part..
but den.. others not yet..
at the end?..
they rush till late late..
i gan jiong till late late.. =="
and the story does not end thr..
the outcome..?
thr's alot of errors.. and dam messy.. zZz
if din zap dao meii..
i think..
the asgmnt can be thrown into the dustbin jorr..
conclusion..?
i continue to stress as if we were rushing it last min again..
great...
tat feeling sux.. =(

i hope i'll b energetic again!!
i wanna complete tis sem without any regrets..
i hope.... =s

*~eNd~*

aww.. it's week 4 soon~ >?<"

2010-11-07T16:56:00.004+08:00

play liao yi xia..
den go study yi xia..
den play duo yi xia..
den study duo yi xia~ @@"

i hope tis will really work tis time~
eek..

asgmnt.. no more last minute work..
yes!
im dam happie..
altho nid to finish one in a limited time..
but stil.. at least no need to rush so much..
whee~
two more days.. one asgmnt will be gone..
den thurs mid term~
nx week..
another asgmnt's turn to be gone~
den mid term again~
nx nx week~
another asgmnt due date + mid term~ >?<"

so dam busy..
no time to go back KL shopping tim.. T_T
lolz..
hope it's all worth~~

ytd bcoz of asgmnt stuff..
den din back KL to attend a fren's bday party~
eek..
feel sorry for her..
hope she wun mind.. =x

n finally?..
glad tat my group had finally came out wid sth for the video clip~
consider 75% / 80% done?..
besides editing work + cut here n thr..
cant wait to see the end result weii~~~

wish me luck bahh ~ ^^v

*~ eNd ~*

i wanna~~

2010-10-30T01:47:00.003+08:00

i wanna do well well tis term~!
i wanna be more healthy ~!
i wanna get a better way to study~!
i wanna get a Master in the future!~
i wanna... .. ... ..

alot alot of things i wanna do~~~
yet.. i haven do..
i unable to do..
i failed to do so..
eek.. =/

therefore..
thus~~
i need to work really really hard n sibeh serious now!! >?<"
gib my CGPA back~! T_T

*~ eNd ~*

sem break is comin to an end~

2010-10-14T20:30:00.004+08:00

last thurs.. i went Malacca for a 2 days one nite trip~
luckily got Mr. Joseph to be our tour guide + driver~
million tQ~ hoho~
if not.. we will be like tersesat punya kids..
y??
bcoz we haf no plansSs~
and duno the place..
so..
without a Mr. guide~
we all GG liao~ >?<"
hmm.. we went to the...
kapal Potugis?~
Red House?~
bukit St. John?~ or sth.. =x forgotten jor.. bcoz too tired ad.. eek
a duno wat geh church.. =s
jonker walk~
and shopping mallsSss~ lmao.. =="
oh ya.. and ZOO!! ^^
(can considered my 1st visit to zoo~ bcoz i ad don remember wat i saw durin my kindergarten~ wakaka~ xDD)
ate??..
biji chicken rice~ i luv the rice very much.. lolz..
satay celup~
bing tong wu lou~~ nx time i will juz eat oni strawberry one.. =/
and wat else?.. i forgot jor.. T_T
i knew i ate McFlurry Milo~ ngek ngek~
I STILL WAN choc geh~ ^^ heheeee

i wanted to go Malacca for a long time jor one..
bcoz i wanna visit those historical places..
tat's my main purpose..
hoho..

due to the fact that we walked alot during the trip..
after back home..
i almost slept for 24 hrs..
not so serious la~
but i took a nap for the 1st time since im back from Kampar..
lolz..
GREAT!!
until i forgotten my date wid my pri best fren.. T_T
huei min~ forgif me pls~ =s
haf to wait till nx sem break again.. aikz..
almost one yr din meet jor.. T_T

hmm..
everyday at home..
eat + sleep + play~
most of the time.. @@
i really rest alot tis sem break~
next sem.. can fight again jor~ ^^
btw.. tml o the day after tml..
den the tak boleh tengok punya results will be coming out ad~ =(
haizz..
no eyes see~

2 more days~
den..
den...
KAMPAR~ im coming back to u~ ^^
den....
den.....
have to say bye bye to air conds ad~ T_T
sobz sobz..
and also soups cooked by mom..
eek..

*~ eNd ~*

aduii~ >?<"

2010-10-11T22:20:00.005+08:00

today went to eat sushi at Sunway Pyramid..
Bonanza RM2 merr~
so.. haf to queue for our turn to eat de lor..
normal geh..
when the ppl who was lookin for seats for us told us..
wait for 5 mins more ha~~
ok.. ma wait lor..
mana tau..
an oh ba sang..
duno which nerve cell sot plug ad..
go argued wid the ppl thr for seats..
bcoz got old ppl waitin thr wa..
waliao eh.. first come fist serve one lo..
wat reason was tat?..
u can let the so call old ppl sit somewhr to wait gah..
lame excuse..
bhind us was a pregnant woman wid a big stomach..
y don they continue to let the customers to cut queue??! =="
suan lo~ fineeeee lorr~~
sister purposely zat the sushi king staff..
den they oso have no valid reason to answer us.. y they did tat?
haha.. shuang~
wan to use old ppl to cut queue also is not by tis way lorr..
i oso brought my grandma went b4..
but we never cut queue ok ??~
got chair bside for customer to sit if u cant stand long de lorrr...
WTH!!
not that we are bad for not letting old ppl in first..
but this is not lyk in the bus..
let old ppl sit first..
hello~
some rules are made to be followed k?~
auntieeeee~ =_____="

den.. den..
mom's frenz were eating inside..
den..
my mom went inside to chat wid her frenz lorr..
hu knows.. they must go n pay bill liao..
bcoz one hour jor..
max time for a customer to dine in..
thus.. they all went to pay bill.. while my mom continue to stay inside..
bcoz it's our turn to dine in liao..
at the same seat tim..
so no nid ma fan to move wert..
rite?
but the staff keep shoo my mom..
altho my mom kept tellin them she was juz chatting wid her frenz juz now..
while i kept telling them she's wid me.. =="
we tot.. the prob has solved after that..
mana tau..
mom's frenz queued up for the 2nd time to dine in again..
bcoz no ppl was queuing ma..
and they wanna continue eat i guess..
but.. the staff NEVER gif them a table..
know wat they did?..
they stuck them ---> 5 ppl..
plus my family 5 ppl..
equal 10 ppl ..
to eat at the SAME table.. =="
we got 2 diff sushi cards..
but they tried to accuse us for using oni one card to dine in..
u say..
if u are the person hu bein treated lyk tis..
will fat lan za anot ?!
how would u feel??

the main point is..
the customer service at SUNWAY PYRAMID's SUSHI KING..
is tak boleh pakai~!!
sux TTM
their supervisor o manager came to asked wat happened..
he got it..
but never say sorry.. =="
luckily got one kinda handsome staff served us wid a polite manners..
else.. they will continue fat lan za..
lmao!!
in addition..
they they they..
look down on short ppl?? =="
ignored me this pitiful shorty while queuing to dine in....
in front of me were some office ladies...
they asked others how many ppl.. but never ask me.. T_T
at 1st.. i tot it's juz accidentally left me out..
but it's not!
the 2nd time was still the same..
i haf to raise up my hand to to to catch their attention..
and then they oni ask me how many person.. =="
swt!!
im not the young husband n wife hu stand bhind me geh daughter lor..
common sense plss~ >?<" eek.. sad dao wo.. haiz.. nobody can understand a shorty gehh feelin.. T_T

>?<"
eeekkkk~

*~ the eNd of one unsatisfying day ~*

2010-10-04T14:45:00.002+08:00

我一直想知道某些问题的答案..
结果没想太多..
就跑去找出答案来..
好奇心太强.. 没办法..
哈哈~ xpp
但是咧.. 就害到一个人在那边生闷气 + 喝醋~
既然现在我懂了..
以后我也不会再好奇.. 再去想..
也有种好像把心头大石给丢掉了那样~^^
原来那个人.. 是那么没用的。
不要也罢~
我也不可能会倒回去的咯~ 笨蛋~ ^^

那天.. 问了奇怪的问题..
不是胡思乱想..
尔.. 又好像是有一点点... =="
信心突然不懂跑到哪里去了..
结果就酱咯..
被气死了吧?
hmm..
有些东西... 我还是想尽我所能地去帮..
希望你会支持我~
偶尔听下我发牢骚..
虽然多数我都做不到些什么.. >?<"
知道你不要我那么 stress..
但要是我什么都没做.. 我会更stress.. =s

咳..
昨天又失眠了.. zZz
那个沟通的语气、方式改一改不就好了吗?
大家合作点拜托~ =(

*~ 毕 ~*

yr2 s1 = ENDED!!

2010-09-28T23:28:00.005+08:00

first of all.. i juz back in KL ytd~
but.. seems like i juz got home..
mayb few hrs ago.. lolz..
ok.. my yr2 sem1 has officially ended in a very..
super.. duper ugly way.. =="
i mean..
the final exam..
but after exam.. it was better~
exam finished in the mornin.. (at 1st.. i tot exam is at 2pm.. zZz)
end earlier..relax earlier..
but den..
it was not as relief as i tot i would be..
and not happy at all.. =[
duno y..

hmm.. after my lunch..
i followed my frenz to Chederong Balai at 12.30pm..
it is the place whr my "mak angkat" lives..
got some fruits for her~
(my bf helped me bought them one.. TQ!~ ^^)
i din call her day b4 to inform her tat im goin thr to visit her..
tot all oso go secara curi-curi ma..
lyk tat baru surprise wert~
den my fren ask me to confirm xia..
in case.. she not at home..
i go liao oso = nth.. =/
so.. hoii choii... she at home.. =D
and.. when we all juz reached thr...
she ad standing at the door thr waitin ~ *_*
so touchin~~~
she asked y tak cakap awal-awal??? aduii...
i don wan tell bcoz don wan her to cook banyak-banyak~
she sure will prepare food one.. >?<"
but we all juz go visit a while..
tak baik.. juz eat bit den pit gah..
so.. ma lyk tat luu~
she asked me to inform awal-awal nx time b4 visit her nx time ~
haha~ ^^
we all take turn to visit each other's mak angkat..
mana tau..
almost all oso got prepare food.. *faint*
bcoz their anak angkat=my frenz..
they told them that we're comin.. >?<"
as the RESULT~!!
all haf to eat..
and i ad full + food lagi..
at the end.. BLOATED~ @@"
omg..
luckily..
kebanyakan my frenz oso helped me gao dim those food jor..
ngek ngek~
visit xia visit xia.. ad 4.30pm.. >?<"
i haf to go back KL at 6.30pm..
walao eh..
luckily ngam ngam hou reach kampar at 6pm..

but..
but den lehh..
somebody waited till neck long long liao lorrrrr~ =s
paiseh la~
really haf to wait 3 weeks den oni can meet liao.. xpp
o mayb in the middle of sem break lehh~
haha.. xDD
hu knowsSs~~~~?
gao dim ur laptop siin bahh~ kaka

*~ eNd ~*

又来一个这样的夜晚..

2010-09-25T05:14:00.003+08:00

想睡的时候, 不能睡~
不能睡的时候, 偏偏一直要睡~
KILL ME!! >?<"
如今.. 本来是累了的..
可是躺下去.. 却怎样都睡不着..
我的 biological clock.. 应该是被我弄坏了.. T_T
假期我会修理修理你的啦~
忍耐点吧~
可是...
可是...
可是..你的主人忍耐不了啊!! (火_火)"
拜一!! 请你快点来..
快点来结束我的痛苦.. T_T
我看.. 星期日探访mak angkat 的打算..
得取消了..
免得自己无端端背上不必要的 STRESS~ @@"
嗯.. 应该就是酱啦~
gambateh~ 撑多 1 2天啊~~~

+*+*+

p.s:
其实.. 昨天有不爽的咯!~
话总不能好好地说的么?
一句话.. 可以有很多种说法..
不一定要出口伤人..
我又没有蛮不讲理..
不要给我负气的话..
而且还...... zzz
别跟我说是因为不懂要讲什么或是什么的为理由..
试试看让我那样做.. 看你会不会火冒三丈!
那样跟普通朋友有什么差?
还有那个矛盾之处..
你不要改.. 就算逼也没用..
我要习惯.. 也没道理习惯得了..
如果你说你就是这样..
那我也说我就是这样..
难道就不用解决了吗?
就是因为每次都没讨论怎样去解决它..
所以每次才会因同样的状况而吵起来..
那个问题.. 我是从来都没遇过的咯..
奇怪到半死.. =="
你说.. 该怎样才好?

+*+*+

*~ 毕 ~*

闭气

2010-09-17T20:07:00.003+08:00

终于考完了............ 3 科.. =="
还有 3 科还没考.. zzz
虽然说只是 3 科..
可是, 却足以拿掉我的命..
第一科, 是英语的科目.. 但是厚..
它.. 它... 它..... 竟然难到... 不懂要怎样形容..
第二科, 提早读了.. 但是?!..
它.. 它... 它..... 竟然也难到.. 出了题没想到的题目..
印象中.. 它也好像没出现过那样..
只怪自己没更早点儿开始温习.. =(
haiz...
另一题, 读过.. 不过却紧张过度..
记不起来!
它奶奶的..
另一题.. 还好而已..
简的来说?
酱就死了两科!!

昨天嘛.. 温习着今天要考的科目时..
已经没信心了..
可说是濒临崩溃状态..
反正读了也不会.. 不如不读更好~
不过咧.. 有个人突然变得很清醒酱..
安慰了我一下..
虽然是迟了点.. 不过.. 还可以接受啦~~~
所以.. 又tahan了一下下..
就酱..
第 3 科的仗.. 也打完了..
只是.. either FAIL or ngam ngam hou PASS! =="
*无言*

眼看.. 那三科.. 都没望了.. ='(
接下来还要更更更努力..
不然.. 我的成绩会死得很好看.. zzz
CGPA 再掉的话..
我会 JIP SAO NG DOU LORRR~!!! >?<"
考完, 哭..
还没考, 也哭..
看成绩时.. 一定又会再哭..
考试的压力.. 往往我都无法克服.. T_T
父母没逼我..
是我自己逼到自己喘不过气来..
我就是无法原谅自己糟糕的烂成绩..
我的底线.. 是一半的分数以上..
可是.. 这个sem..
3 个mid term.. 2 个都没超过一半..
烂!!!
虽然说很多人都一样.. 不过我还是不喜欢!!
这样的要求太高咩???
不可能.. 对吧?
只是.. 万万想不到的是..
coursework marks.. 竟然少到不像样!
这次不死.. 都难了.. T_T

酱子.. 哪可能不伤心呢?..
咳...

*~*~*

熬夜.. 就来熬到变成它那样了.. =(

*~*~*

*~ 毕 ~*

2010-09-06T03:06:00.004+08:00

study..
stUdy~

sTUdy~~!!

argh!!! >?<"

....................................................................................................

一些些。。

2010-09-05T01:39:00.003+08:00

好久都没写blog 了。。
几怀念一下~
不知不觉。。 y2s1 就这样。。将近尾声了。。
asgmnt 的仗。。打完了。。
之后就是跟final 打仗了~
准备？？还没有。。 ==
紧张？？说没有！是骗人的。。 ==
咳。。。
祝我好运吧~ =/

+*+*+

想想下。。在我的生活中。。
真的有许许多多的矛盾之处。。
难以接受的。。也都接受了。。
只是。。有些东西。。还是无法接受。。
有时。。甚至会觉得很辛苦。。
也许。。是过不了自己那关？
会去做的东西，有些却没完成、没做到。。
不是想去做的东西，却做到了。。
你说。。矛盾吗？==
有时候。。我不知道自己想要什么。。
有时候。。知道自己要什么。。却不懂得如何表达。。
尝试表达出来。。却弄巧反拙。。不然就是把事情给弄恶化掉。。
不表达出来。。没不好的事情会发生。。
但是。。自己却会把问题闷在心里。。
直到喘不过气来。。
更糟的是。。一次过把问题、任何东西搬出来讲。。
脾气、心情、思考能力。。也不会好到哪里去。。
结果。。也不就会从恶劣状况中先着手。。
之后才“化险为夷”。。 >?< 有问题，却没答案的状况。。是最令人气愤的咯。。
给点耐性去听、去明白。。好么？

+*+*+

*~ 毕 ~*

2010-08-01T02:03:00.003+08:00

像个白痴那样。。 =="

=/

2010-07-05T23:16:00.003+08:00

asgmnts week~
mid terms comin~ (NEXT WEEK!!)

,,,
Orz

eeeekkkkk~~!!! T_T

i don wan~~~ >?<"

*~ eNd ~*

o囧o

2010-07-01T15:41:00.003+08:00

最近。。做了一件事。。
可能习惯了。。
有时候做某些决定。。没想那么多就去做了。。
忘了如今不像从前。。
不能够随便乱来。。
结果？忽略了一个人的感受。。 =s
一时忘了那样做。。其实是个致命伤。。
eek..
对不起。>?<
假如有个时光机。。那该多好啊？
至少可以不遇到一些令我不开心的人事物。。而痛苦。。
不用当了个笨蛋！
有伤口。。那应该是自找的呱。。
咳。。
请原谅我不够信心。。
给我些些时间。。
好让我把它积少成多。。
好吗？^^

p.s:
别再倒下了。。
因为那种感觉原来蛮恐怖的。。 =="

*~ 陵 ~*

。。。

2010-06-22T00:15:00.006+08:00

没兴趣看者。。就 juz ignore 以下的东东罢了。。

不明白。。
到底是我太粗心？还是你太细心？
有时。。我很介意。。而你却不介意。。
有时。。你很介意。。而我却不介意。。
当我认为一个人生气的时候。。
最好别出声。。
最好别打扰。。
哪知？原来那是错的。
何时。。我所做的。。才会是对的？
很好奇。。
那是因为那令人讨厌的被忽略感？
还是那醋惹的祸？
还是。。??? o.O
为什么。。当我在一个陌生或听不懂的状况下。。
不为我想想。。当时我的感受是如何的？
你处在的时大家都认识的状况。。
因不懂在说些什么& ... 而发闷气？。。
也许。。你会觉得我不够体谅你吧？。。
你知道我不会只理会你一个人的。。
我本来都是这样。。不是么？
也许。。你是因为想到将会有很少时间一起。。
所以想我多点陪你。。
可是我却想到。。难得有得有机会聊聊。。
所以就聊久了些。。
结果？就酱了。。 =="
不同的人。。有不同的想法？
到底该怎么办才会是最好的？
不喜欢这样的感觉。。
讨厌现在的感觉！

咳。。

*~ 毕 ~*

u can never understand sth if u never experience it before..

2010-06-05T21:36:00.003+08:00

u can never understand sth.. (for example: feeling, the purpose of doing sth.. etc..)
if u never experience it before..

u always think tat living outside would be very fun..
or thr would be a lot of freedoms..
yes.. it's fun sometimes..
and yes.. thr's freedom..
u can do anth u lyk without anyone scoldin o nagging over ur ears..
living outside would be the best place to head to..
when thr's arguments o me-mafan-kan geh stuff happening..
but haf u tot of sth?..
when u dam hungry.. and when thr's nobody that can provide u wid food immediately..
how will u feel?..
u haf car.. u can go anywhr u lyk..
u can do watever u lyk..
but haf u tot of.. when thr's no car for u.. wat can u do ?
if.. when u are sick at a far distance place from home..
u can only fight wid the sickness alone..
without the annoying nagging from parents to eat this med.. tat med..
will u b happy tat way?..

all of these.. u two have never experience before..
and u two even tot of living outside wid own ability b4..
sure mao?
when hungry.. den just say "cook sth/xxx for me~ mommie~"
working is tiring.. i know..
but wat abt daddy?
he is not young anymore..
cant u two just help to do house chores without any arguments?!
imagine sth..
if u live outside.. no matter how tired u are..
u still have to do ur own housework..
nobody will help u tat time..
dont u two know tat.. actually staying at home is quite a blessing ?
who like to be nagged ?
but.. if everyone can cooperate to settle those works together..
den ma no nagging o arguments will happen lo.. (altho sometimes still will have..==)
but still.. just done ur own part ma ok lo..
cant u all just talk properly wid each other ?!
cant u two just be more thoughtful?
haizz...

don hang up on me without saying a goodbye..
i DO MIND tat.. alot..
especially wid family..
bcoz family is the one that i care the most..
wat's so important until u have no time to listen to me?...
if u're busy den don call me first..
i talked alone thr lyk a siao one without getting any replies..
and that's not only once!
line not good is one of the bad communication factor..
but still.. not paying attention is also another factor!
i tot u were juz jokin by sayin..
den juz off lo..since u angry.. =="
hu wun angry?
mana tau.. u really off web cam..
deng..
have u tot of how would i feel???
or bcoz i used to not letting ppl noe my feeling..
tat's y u don know?
my fault ?

='(

*feel so stupid*

*~ eNd ~*

=s

2010-06-05T00:31:00.004+08:00

sekali gus watched le 7 episodes of Bleach~
yay~ shuang~ ^^
so nice eh~~~

ahem..
hmm.. y2 juz started.. it's kinda scary lo..
haiz.. scare wat if i couldnt cope wid it ?
wat if.. i disappoint my parents again?
wat if.. i stress myself out again? =="
eek!!

don wanna be lyk last sem.. .. ..
gambateh bahh.. =/

*~ eNd ~*

>?<"

2010-05-26T01:02:00.002+08:00

怕怕~~~ >?<"
几个小时后。。。
either 松了口气。。
不然。。就是口哭个够力。。 T_T
maii anehh laa~
保佑大家都平安过关好不好？~ ~

*sobz*

*~ 毕 ~*

2010-05-24T19:15:00.002+08:00

Wednesday... can dont come??? >?<"

RMWD~

2010-05-22T16:06:00.016+08:00

七早八早就已经考完试了。。但是就是没回kL.. 哈哈。。
因为参加了rakan muda 举办的下乡活动。。
at CHENDERONG BALAI, Sg. Manik..
所以就迟些回家。。
嗯。。在那里。。没有我想象中的“ulu”。。
就。。 kampung酱咯~
呵呵。。
我的ibu angkat的家。。还蛮简陋的。。
虽然说是一个人住而已。。不过。。也有点可怜的感觉。。 =/
风扇小到。。。下午就会gok 死她涅。。
不过晚上却很凉爽。。所以有得好好地睡觉。。
不过。。可能因为在陌生的地方。。
结果我睡下。。醒一下。。 @@ lol
她的家只有两间房。。结果她就让了出来给我们四个anak angkat 睡。。
*好伟大~*
她已经有60多岁了耶~ 叫她去房间睡她又不肯。。 >?< 就酱。。三个夜晚。。她都睡客厅。。 =x
她的儿女全都长大了。。
她又不喜欢城市的生活。。
所以退休后就住在那kampung 了。。
从马来人的口中听他们的言语。。
说真的。。还有点难度。。
有时我花了好久一段时间才能消化她在说些什么。。
排写啦~ 至少我有努力去听她在说什么。。呵呵
and and.. 她很怕我们会饿坏呢。。
一直问我们饿不饿？
所以在她的家。。一定会有食物准备在桌上的。。 =]]

她家的庭院~

这个就是她家的铁门了。。

一进去屋里。。就会看到这个厅了。。

中间的是我们的ibu angkat..
其他四个冬瓜就是她的anak angkat了~^^

最后一天。。我们要离开那里时。。
她哭了耶。。 =[
之后还搞失踪。。不给我们找到她。。 =/
正式的掰掰都没说到涅。。
有机会的话。。就再去找她吧~ ^^
给她老人家开心一下~
她没有能够出去远门的交通工具。。
所以只能靠她的孙和孩子们买东西给她。。
幸好他们偶尔还会回来探望她。。 =]]
第四天。。她特地订了四个burger 给我们当早餐。。
实在是太感动了。。
真的很谢谢她在那几天里那么的照顾我们。。 =D

lesson learned?
在金宝的时候。。
真的比在kampung那里幸福很多了。。
该知足了。。
虽然金宝偶尔也gok到半死。。
不过。。应该也会比在kampung尝到的。。好多了。。
至少。。身边有很多人陪伴着~ ^^♥
真的真的。。以后不能把父母年老后。。
丢下他们自己生活。。
因为。。真的有点感到蛮孤独的。。 =/

不过。。时间久后。。
一定又会再complain 生活里的不满的。。 lol
human nature? =pp

有个人特地上去载我回家。。还蛮开心的。。
哈哈。。 xpp
那个冒险之途。。爽卯？
哇咔咔~
不谢谢你啦~ ^^♥
我看迟早你真的会被搞到心脏病发作。。
哈哈！

最近。。怎样睡都还很累。。
不懂是精神上累。。
还是什么的。。
aikz..
希望这个sem break 能够有足够的休息吧~ >?<"

倒数 7 天~ ^^

*~ 毕 ~*

eeeek...

2010-05-10T17:54:00.002+08:00

hu can teach me how to edit the blog's layout?~~~ >?<"
aduii..
all the html codes geh blogskins..
semua tak boleh pakai nehh.. gahh...
o hu can make a nice nice background for my blog??~~~?~~~?
sobz sobz..

one more paper..
den another sem gone..
and...
and......
year 2 is coming soon ad.. @@
so fast~

*~ eNd~*

='(

2010-05-07T11:52:00.003+08:00

stupid cognitive psy!! dam it..
y were u so hard?
y were u so confusing?
y do u haf so many theoriessss??!!
i couldnt deal wid stuff that related to science!! T_T
for me..
it's all juz lyk scientific termsSs..
tat i wouldnt able to digest..

='(

i don wanna repeat tis subject..
i don wanna fail 2 papers..

=(

i felt lyk giving up again when i was studyin cog psy..
it is a big prob tat i having since long long time ago i guess?
when i duno how to deal wid sth..
i will choose to hide away.. o feel lyk givin up..
tis is so not good..
negative thinking.. omg..
i juz couldnt help at it..
this feeling sux a lot.......

tanx for encouraging me not to gif up by not writin anth..
altho still wrong.. o duno how to do..
by chance.. some part of it might be correct rite?..
but i know the possibility is super low..
haiz..

once woke up den tot of it again.. deng
still haf 2 more to go..
haf to try my best to score as high as possible..
else.. sure cry ad.. T_T

*~ eNd ~*

final =_____="

2010-04-29T13:37:00.002+08:00

it's final time again liaoooooo...
eek..
i duno how to control the stress...>?<
plz allow me to learn things faster~ easier~ and and..
let me b cleverer~~ xDD
wakaka..
time to study le~
gambateh everyone~

f5 buddies.. wait for me to back KL!!
ad one year din meet liao..!! T_T

i slept alot..
but still..
feel like sleeping.. =="
yyy?
how come a ?
lolz..

final ~ 5 5 gone.. den my holiday le~ ^^ ♥

*~ yu ~*

pic of 1day trip~

2010-04-23T13:17:00.003+08:00

these are the orchids that the residents at the half ways planted.. =]]beautiful rite?? ^^

eagle that was painted~
not bad bah??
this lil car tabung very cute..
i think it was not for sale one..
else.. it ad wun be thr liao..
wahaha.. xDD
below are the picures of the boys at Salvation Army..
all queuing to play scissors, paper & stone ~
haha
lose liao den nid to go to the back and line up again to "fight"~
5 5 win lar~ @@
this lil boy in red..
keep cut queue one.. >?<"
that's all the pictures i got bahh.. =/
eek..
too lil pic i guess..
haha..
bcoz kept play n gap things~
hohO~

*~yu~*

1 day trip~ ^^

2010-04-18T18:15:00.020+08:00

*17th april 2010*

==*==*
a one day trip organized by my psychology course~
==*==*

i went to perak society for the promotion of mental health.. which is also called half way? =x i not sure bt that.. sorry.. >?<
erm.. that was the 1st place we went.. it is an NGO..
we were told that.. the residents thr..
are recovered or cured n get out of the mental hospital already one..
but their family couldnt affort to take care of them..
or they got no place to head to..
den they will stay in thr..
some of them.. their daily expenses is being paid by their family one.. =]]
hmm.. they nid to take their med 3 times per day.. @@ oh my..
that's to prevent them from relapse..
basically..they look just lyk normal people..
some are not la.. but still.. most of them looks normal..
honestly.. when the person in charge was briefing us..
i was dam sleepy.. bcoz the nite b4 i din had enuf sleep.. @@
paiseh la.. but i still got try my best to listen wat she said.. haha xpp
but..
im energetic again when walking arnd to visit here n thr.. xDD
the people thr.. they were taught how to make handicrafts..
for example how to paint the clay stuff, make cloth dolls, knitting stuff.. etc etc..
den they will sell them after that..
at least they get to learn sth to earn for their living on their own ~ ^^
not bad rite??~
thr was a person.. she was paintin the clay stuff.. it was painted carefully..
n some of the clay tabung over thr were very nice too..
thus.. all the tabung-sSs were fully sapu by our coursemates~ lolz!!
RM8 each..
i lyk the little angel that ah Thye bought~
it was super beautiful! keke..
tiny & beautiful~
it was still in purely white clay.. bcoz it was not painted yet..
but nvm la.. it looks nice still~ ♥
hmm.. de only thing tat made me kinda scare was..
when i heard a person was screaming over thr..
i couldnt see whr izit.. who? or wat happen..
i just heard that.. not oni me who heard the screaming..
everyone over thr oso heard the same thing..
i was thinking.. wat would i do if it happens in front of me?
can i handle o face that in the future?
the person screamed lyk she couldnt get wat she wants..
o mayb throwing things? fatt lan za lyk tat?
i really duno.. =/
ga yao bahh to me~ and also to us~ ^^
the person in charge also told us that..
if the residents thr fight o in the state that they cant control..
den they will send the particular residents to the mental hospital..
hmm..a psychologist haf to b empathy n not sympathy..
how?? see them.. den will feel pitiful for them..
as they will be bullied out thr..
o mayb will be harmed by others..
o even bein treated unfairly..
so??.. wat shld we do? or how shld we do?.. =/

this is juz the very beginning of everyth...
be thankful for how v are now ~
as.. we are a lot 幸福 a.k.a more bahagia than them..
do not bully them! or discriminate or label them as ppl wid mental prob~
"curing is caring" is their cogan kata~
caring is sharing too btw~
so.. show some caring to them bahh~ ; )

*~*~*

the next destination that we went to is.. Salvation Army Boys Home~
it is an orphanage.. males ONLY~
the age range over thr is from 6 yrs old to upper six..
that wat i know..
hmm.. it's quite weird wid the way how we started to communicate wid them..
ice breaking session.. den dance.. den play..
well.. the most fun part was the time when all playing together luu..
all kids love to play.. haha..
except those older boys.. they seems reluctant to join in to play together.. =/
during the play time.. den oni all join together to play.. haha..
the kids played until very erm.. active? gan-jiong-ly? haha..
keep cut line to get to play.. lolz.. (kids marr~)
normal lahh~
when we young.. we oso lyk tat de bahh.. rite? xpp
keke..
most of the kids thr are chinese..
except for few of them are indians..
but they can speak Cantonese one k? haha..
"jie jie, i go drink water a while ok?" (in cantonese)
haha.. so cute~
appreciate while we are having our both parents~
the kids over thr don even haf a parents to care, to love or to scold them..

*~*~*

i wanna learn how to deal wid people better ~ ^^
wish me luck~ n wish me to be braver..
so that i dare to approach people i don know..
to help them~ under a safe condition o environment of coz.. keke..
and.. i feel that.. if we wan to help out o offers help...
we must have enuf energy and well-rested..
if not..
the helping process will become less effective..
gambateh!! ^^

last but not least..
17th is my hsemate's ---> ling wei's bday~
haha..
happie belated burfday again in my belated post yea~ ; )
cheers~

*~ yu ~*

watever~

2010-04-12T02:50:00.003+08:00

here's an "interesting" story..
spend some time to read it.. IF u're interested..
and.. u may ignore it if u're not interested.. ^^

once upon a time.. thr was a kns guy.. ahemm..
(thr's no point calling him as a"gentlemen" as.. he is not gentleman at ALL.. =D)
his mouth not oni bein used as a tool to eat..
he oso use it to talk without using his brain..
as the result.. he always speak along wid the needles n poke thru ppl's heart..
get it zao get it la ha.. don get it den sorry la..
i duno how to explain.. xpp
even if he use his brain..
i think.. he oso duno how to speak in a humanistic way geh lo..
the way he talk lan ci anot.. depends on how u see n talk wid him lo..
observe by ur own self ba liao~
haha..
it was the same person i mentioned in my blog b4..
the men-sia-sui-kan guys' face geh ppl..
tat was last sem's case.. lol
everyone worth a second chance.. BUT.. not for his case..
gif him 2nd chance oso haf to curi laugh ad..
tot lesser interaction.. den he will at least respect ppl more n talk nicely tim..
wo pei! * opps~ xpp
my "nicely" term.. is refering to.. at least.. b4 talk sth..
think for others too..not only for urself.. ^^ get dao?..
i don think he will get dao wor..bcoz he can nv learned from his lesson..
so.. it's kinda useless to go n 苦口婆心地劝告such a 烂人。。 ^^
oh ya.. im refering to tat "烂人" tat i mentioned b4 wor~
if.. u haf presentation 2 days after..
and ur leader only asked u to do the slides today..
and the deadline to complete the slide would b tml..
how would u feel? shuang ma?
wat's the point of asking when can i complete the slides since thr's oni one day left for me to complete it?!
why don u juz gif me the time n date straight away nehh ?! *use ur blain use ur blain
asked y so last minute?.. he replied "i bz ma.."..
bz den dai sai hor?..
i don haf my own thing to do ma ?
"i tot it would b very easy to finish ma.."
easy?.. den y don u do urself? ==!!
don talk sh*t plz..
wat if sth happen in btween?
wat if i got more important things to deal wid ?
whr will haf the enuf time to complete it den?
well.. thr is 2 days in btween b4 presentation.. but.. such ppl wan rehearsal o sth one day b4 mer.. so.. so.. oni haf one day to complete it lo..
and.. altho i oni find points to write inside.. no nid deco..
but den.. i nid to reread the whole report to do whole slides eh..
no nid time one hor?!..
ok fine.. nvm..juz do it ba liao..
den after tat.. one day b4 presentation..
he told us to go his hse to rehearse n discuss bt the presentation after 40mins..
hello! u tot the whole world will reserve the time for u kah?!
duno how to inform earlier one izit?!
tis is consider last minute oni inform ppl ba?? rite rite?
i ma asked mai y so last min again lo..
den get such a replied..
"wat last min? u shud tml is the presentation rite? n u expect me to reserve the time for u oni? i haf 3 presentations tis week n haf to do slides.. plz b mindful.. bla bla bla.."
fyi, he said he haf dance practice at nite.. so.. cant rehearsal for presentation at nite...
n fyi, normally he will ask us to rehearsal at nite.. thus.. i oni expected rehearsal at nite time..
due to the fact tat.. he din inform earlier.. i went to Beautiful Gate Educational Centre For The Disabled tat afternoon..
and so ngam.. the time clash wid the time he wanna rehearsal wor..
how to b at 2 diff place at the same time?..
so far.. get dao?
well.. if u.. urself mindful enuf.. den y don u juz cancel ur dance practice?..
since.. u will oni haf to perform 3 days after our presentation?..
n since u said.. u everyday oso haf to practice.. one day don go wil die?
i don blif u will so cha sui lo.. one day din go den tak blh d hor?
go bang wall ba liao.. no no.. go jump lake ba liao!
eee?.. too near here liao wor..
better go jump sea.. o longkang..
the further the BETTER~~~ ^^
said his time very pack wid practices n slides wa..
den ask me to be empathy wa..
plz la.. u ma as well haf to learn how to be empathy to ppl 1st !!
i oso did slides til late mid nite lor..
is how u treat ppl.. den oni i will talk to u in such a way..
tat's y i told u wat goes arnd, wat comes arnd..
but u don get it... haha!
said how i replied made him pek chek wa.. great~ ^^
ppl said "ok" to u.. is juz to fu yim u oni ah so zaii..
u tot ppl like to zao u ahh?
siam far far la u..
u tot u who o?..
well.. i wanted so much to tell him tat..
do u noe tat.. actually...
many ppl don like u??~~~ ^^
shud b sayin.. most ppl DONT like u~
bcoz u're 烂人 + wid dam annoying attitude..
see him once den feel like slappin him once..
but my frenz ask me to not to waste time on him..
n most importantly is.. thr's no need to dirty my hands bcoz of him~ ^^

i angry wid his dam sucky attitude..
n i so soo soooo very much don like to talk to him..
ANYMORE~
selfish guy .. zezeze
shame on u~
a lot suii yeh bt u..
ppl hu duno u ma tot u okok person lo..
F off my way ~
i would b super happy if u vanish from my sight~ ^^
truths' hurt.. n u don like to listen..
so.. go ahead n live in ur own kns world n cont wid ur kns behavior/attitude..
even tell u oso no point..
bcoz u will nv learn to chg into a better person..
sim hoii dit bah u !
烂人!!

*~ eNd ~*

hmm..

2010-04-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

你不知道。。你问似轻松的问题。。
对我来说。。却是多么的。。 err.. 压力？不知如何是好？
说真的。。我怎样都不懂要怎么去面对它。。
它。。对我来说。。
是件令人失望的东东。。
是件可怕的东东。。
是件能不碰则不碰的东东。。
是件不可靠的东东。。
所以。。我也不懂我最后会做出什么心脏病的决定。。
你该不知道。。也无法想象。。
当时我有多害怕。。
甚至害怕到想哭。。
那个恐惧感。。你是无法想像的。。
我不知道我会需要到多久的时间。。
那个。。也算是个期限吧？
到时再决定该怎么处理它~
不可以就是不可以~ =)

=p

*~ 陵 ~*

im pisssssed off!!

2010-04-06T23:19:00.003+08:00

i m pissed off wid one shitty fellow!!!
after tml.. den no nid to care that suckiest guy i ever met!!
get the F off my sight!!
no face to gif another time jor..
tot wat u oso right ma rite?den go ahead!!!
continue b ur own suckiest guy in the world~
continue men-sia-sui-kan guy de face~
u might as well b dump into the garbage bin by other guys~
haha!
or mayb the garbage bin oso don wan u.. bcoz u suckxxx till nobody.. nowhr wanna let u stay!!
sim hoii dit la!!

顺其自然？

2010-04-04T02:10:00.000+08:00

这个情景。。我只在金宝看过。。
乌云黑到。。。。。。 >?<
很恐怖下的感觉。。
大概是在7-8pm 之间拍的。。
所以暗暗的。。
fyi, 我的电话没flash light.. thus，根本拍不出什么。。
haiz.. 觉得有点浪费。。 eek

这个就是在放学的时候拍的。。
时间还蛮早。。所以比较清楚。。呱~ lolz
很明显。。乌云已密布~

有乌云。。是好事。。
因为？
代表回到家。。不会酱热。。 lol
anyway.. 我还是比较喜欢看蓝天白云~
因为白色的云很美。。

至于。。这样的一天。。
我却讨厌得很。。
天空像似要下场倾盆大雨。。
但却下了场毛毛雨。。
要不然就是要下不下那样。。
辛苦的是人类。。
不病才怪。。

曾经。。觉得。。
每当拥有一个快乐。。也会有几个不快乐找上门来。。
或许是恰巧。。
或许是乱想。。
不过最近突然发现。。
原来这个 fact 由始自终。。
都从没改变过。。
我可以不要那快乐吗？

*累*

=(

*~ 毕 ~*

Q(~_~#)Q

2010-03-30T01:36:00.002+08:00

wonderin.. y keep wan to sleep as much as possible oni?? >?<
eek..
went back to kL last weekend..
de oni thing i wanna do was....
SLEEP!!!~~
whr oso don wanna go.. =x
i even ffk-ed one gang of frenz de yum cha session..
hahaaa~
nx time bahh..
i ffk-ed my frenz.. but i went yum cha wid my family.. lmao..
geng leh?~

alot to post abt.. but...... laZy~ @@

let it be short n precise~?

ahem...
mom cooked dinner for me to eat b4 goin back to kampar..
but.. my stomach doesnt cooperate wid me.. >?<
was full till no space for the dinner at 5pm.. lolz..
thus~ i packed my dinner~ hoho
n bring it balik kampar wid me by train~
once reached kampar.. it's ad 830pm~
den reached my hse arnd 9pm bahh...
den den.. throw my stuff away...
den den den.. dinner time~ (eat the rice + vege + fish b4 it is spoilt~ ^^)
as the result.. im bloated wid satisfaction~♥ hehee
mom's the BEST~
especially the food !! ^_*
ngek ngek~
felt so warm~ altho the rice ad coldddd~ lmao~ xDD

btw.. my mom is sHOcKeD wid the amount of my food consumption..
lmaO~
"i ate alot more here liao lo as compared to how much i eat when i at kampar~ haha~"
"u seRious?!"
ahaha.. i found tat funny..
but i knew she was juz worried that i would starve myself..
nahh~ i wun gehh~
when hungry? i will eat...
when not hungry? i will ignore.. or mayb eat junk food?
lmao.. xpp

so far.. lyk tis siin la~ ; )

nitez~~~

*~ yu ~*

last weekend~

2010-03-22T17:42:00.007+08:00

these are all my presents~ hoho..^^

all of these looks like all oso bear bear stuff..
but actually it's not.. keke..
tanx for all presents~ hehee.. ♥

*~*~*
20/03/2010
ipoh trip wid hsemates n two foundation buddies~ hoho

long gor wid ketam~
it looks lyk..
long gor: " sei yeh ahh.. hu ask u sit here?!"
ketam: " hu cares?~ ngek ngek~"
bwahaha.. xpp

still don wan to simm hoii dit??!
kill u wid eyes' electricity~!!
ahaha..xDD

chyi n wen~

me n wen~

me n chyi~

me + wen + chyi + partially invisible ling wei~
wakaka!! xpp

first time sit bus to Ipoh.. lol..
kinda scary.. bcoz not sure which bus station that it will stop at..
and wat if we miss the station? lolz...

it was a freaking tired day.. lmao..
all tired till.. lyk zombies ad..
haha..
tanx for coming wen & long gor~!! ♥♥♥
TB4 rox~!! ^^ v

*~ yu ~*

jia you.

2010-03-21T01:07:00.002+08:00

请你好好照顾自己。
加油！ =]

my buddies~ ♥

2010-03-17T00:30:00.002+08:00

歌曲：思念是一种病
演唱：张震岳

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点有没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了什么蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病
一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病
一种病

*~*~*

tis was one of the songs being sang by form5 graduates in 2007..
a fren of mine told me that he missed all the time v had together last time..
not only those happie moments..
but also those sad and unforgettable moments..
which v could no longer have it anymore..
as everyone is heading to different direction in life..
trying to reach one's own ambition n goals..
hmm.. it has been 3 yrs apart since graduated from secondary..
so fast eh?..
the point is.. in this 2yrs plus..
we could hardly go out n meet wid sec frenz..
it's either the time clashed or one of us was busy..
aikz..
when my fren told me that he is very sad bcoz couldnt be by my side whenever i sad..
i was touched..
bcoz he is still the best fren whom always prays and wishes the bez for me..
and i felt bad at the same time..
bcoz i went to a far far place to study.. and i really care very less for them..
everyone of them from my sec.. T_T
y izit so ngam that..
most of the time when i cried..
or when i unhappy..
u guys's warm msg will reach on time.. lolz..
wat a coincidence eh? haha

MOK CHIA LIT!!! BE TOUGH EH!~^^ bcoz im tougher than last time ad!~ xp
ICE TREE!! I LUV U LOTzZz~!! ^^♥ xOxO~ u know the reasons y so bah?~ ; )

*hugs*

*~ yu ~*

haiz..

2010-03-15T13:48:00.002+08:00

想说。。
整天酱吵不累的么？
怎样说你都会生气。。
那以后不如我不说实话好了。。
谎言该会比较好吧?
至少不用被人骂、被人念。。
这个状况就好像一个男友在管女友那样。。 ==
知道你是为我好。。
不过。。好像太多规则。。太多约束了。。
我对某些人好。。是自然的。。
而且我又不是对每个人都一样那么好。。
我对他们特别好。。并不是一两天就可以培养出来的。。
说真的。。我是一个不喜欢被人管的人。。
可是偶尔我都有听你的。。
这已经好过完全不听了。。
辜负你对我的好。。是我的错。
越管我。。我只会越反抗。。
也许这就是其中一个原因我不想要接触到感情的世界。。
因为太多规则了。。
你，对我很好。。
但是。。有时。。却让我有点害怕。。 =x
这一秒也许还好。。可是下一秒却可以突然变成狂风暴雨。。
你有你的原则。。我也有我的原则。。
你的原则是道理；我的原则却是歪理？
可不可以lyk 有时尊敬下我所做的选择？
without any 不爽-ness 那种。。
其实。。我没资格要求些什么。。
只是不想你因为我而24小时在那边气。。没那个必要。。
我并不是什么大人物。。或是什么重要人物。。
为什么你就是不要让自己好过点？？
至于那个神秘的人。。你就别去恨他了。。
他本来都是在一个特殊的位置。。
没人可取代的。。
要怎么去处理他？我想那个我必须自己想吧。。
没人可帮得上忙的。。
对不起了。。
可能你越看会越生气。。
我不懂该怎么说了。。 >?<

*~ 毕 ~*

生日派对~　^^

2010-03-14T19:46:00.002+08:00

长到那么大。。昨天还是我平生第一次有过的生日派对~
hoho
话说回来。。我真的是一个非常幸福的孩子~ 哈哈
因为我整家人还有父母的朋友家人特地来金宝为我办这个生日派对~
实在是太感动了!!
来这里没得好好睡之外。。
还得忙着为我准备这、准备那。。
辛苦了~
非常感谢就是了。。=D

父母说这个是为了庆祝华人岁数 -----> 21 的喔~
呜呜呜
老了老了。。
anyway..这是提早庆祝的。。
哈哈
since 家人全都刚好有假期。。 =]]
开派对。。
除了兴奋之余。。还蛮紧张的。。
因为人多的时候不懂要做什么。。 =="
可惜老天不作美。。
bbq 到一半下雨。。鸡蛋糕！
不过幸好之后换来的是凉爽~
有利必有弊~ lolz
最近的天气。。我喜欢！嘻嘻~ ^^♥

♥♥♥
第一次，那么多人帮我庆祝生日。
第一次，拼命地想把吹不息的蜡烛吹掉。
第一次，那么多人为我准备那么多东东。
第一次，收到那么多礼物。
第二次，庆祝到有想哭的感觉。
♥♥♥

这次。。请了蛮多的朋友来。。
派对真正几点开始的。。我已忘记了。。 =x
当大家吃到都停下了手的时候。。
竟然以玩游戏的方式来把剩余的食物给干掉~ 哈哈
输了就会被惩罚。。
而且吃的都是怪怪的食物。。
多数都是辣到半死。。
我妈煮的辣椒鸡太辣了。。
结果很多人都没吃。。 =s
我只吃过一块肉。。
本想at least 吃掉一块肉。。
那知？两行泪却飘了下来。。
实在辣到不行~ @@
不想麻烦妈妈再去调过味道。。
结果。。吃的人们。。得辣到不懂飞到哪个星球去了~
哇哈哈~ 可怜~
妈妈准备的猪排也特别好吃~
平时猪肉我统统都不吃。。
就只吃妈妈弄的猪肉~
哇咔咔~
挑食的小孩~ 没办法~ hoho

party end 了后。。
家人zap 好东西。。休息下。。
就回kL 去了。。
因为姐姐隔天有东西做。。
累坏他们了。。 =s
我的hsemates.. 也有帮忙。。结果全都累傻了。。
睡到日上三竿~
我也破纪录了。。
第一次那么迟起床~ haha
睡到自然醒那种~ xpp

谢谢大家那么赏脸哦~ ^^♥
连临时邀请来的朋友都送我一张卡。。
i wonder 他们是怎样在那么短时间内变出一张卡来的？ o.O??
haha~ ； )

btw.. 很多礼物我都还没拆开来。。 =x
因为hsemates 讲要一起拆~
哈哈
明天吧~ xDD

milli0ns tanx t0 every0ne~!! ^^♥
heaRts~

*~ 陵 ~*

就酱。。

2010-03-09T01:33:00.002+08:00

就酱。。
很快的。。
已经一年了。。

就酱。。
转眼间。。
一天不见了。。

就酱。。
mid term 打到来了!!
杀啊！~~

就酱。。
又牺牲睡眠了。。
自己活该的。。

就酱。。
在不够时间的时候抽出点时间。。
写这个。。 ==

就酱。。
晚安了~

*~ 毕 ~*

胡思乱想？=/

2010-02-28T19:17:00.002+08:00

有一天，有位朋友突然提起了以前的东东。。
有句话。。从以前听到现在。。都没什么变到。。
可是那个人所做的。。跟所说的。。
好像有些不一样。。
有时。。
让我觉得有点恐怖。。
让我觉得不知何时才该相信那个人所说的话。。
有时。。
觉得那个人的所作所为很荒唐。。zZz
好像乱乱来那样。。
有个事实。。从没改变过。。
也不会改变。。
那个人是知道的。。
到最后。。我听到的是“对不起”。。
但是。。我却不肯定那个对不起。。
指的是哪件事？
也不清楚那个人为什么会突然跟我说对不起？。。
为什么现在才说那个对不起？
就算道歉。。时间也不会倒流。。
始终还是有受了伤的三个人。。
早知今日，何必当初？
如果说。。当时造成伤口的武器是那个人。。
我只能说。。“无奈”两字。。
如果说。。当时某某人是抱着玩玩的心态。。
我只能说。。“无言”两字。。
不过某某人曾经坦诚过他并没抱着玩玩的心态。。
至于为什么会酱的原因却到现在都模糊不清。。
为什么我会认识到你们这两个怪胎？？？ =="
我真的搞不懂。。你们做莫鬼？
那个人。。不懂做什么。。
每每总是喜欢时不时把伤口打开。。
若继续那样。。那伤口该如何痊愈？
每次碰到伤口处。。都会哭。。
因为真的很痛很痛。。
好想找个机会。。
把某某人捉出来问个清楚。。
知道真相后。。
当那个人再说些什么。。
也都无法把我拉回原点去了吧~
咳。。
要是当初大家互不相识。。会不会比较好呢？

“人，应该向前看，而不是一直往后看。”
说来容易，要做却难啊。。>?<

*~ 毕 ~*

~ rainbow~

2010-02-27T17:07:00.002+08:00

both pictures from the above..
the rainbow seems lyk fell on top of the houses~ ♥

the view in front of my house (at kampar) =D
therainbow~ ♥♥♥

♥♥♥

all these rainbow pictures were taken by me wid my noob fon's camera..
well.. they were all editted..
bcoz i want to make the rainbow looks more VISIBLE~
hoho~
i love the last pic the most..
l0lz..^^♥
the first thought came into my mind was..
how wish thr was a DSLR tat time..
hmm..
den the beauty of the rainbow can be captured..
eek..
wasted.. >?<
FYI, i saw the rainbow at the moment i stepped out of my balcony to get cooler air~
heheee~
i was lyk.. whOa!~
it is so B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L~~~! =D
and it looks kinda BIG..
i felt lyk catching it wid my hand..=s
hahaa!
it's so near yet so far~
it looks near..but v can never reach it.. =/
"can v cycle thr to find whr the rainbow falls at?"
this was a silly thought of mine at the moment..
lmao..
i wonder whr the rainbow falls at?
any idea?? o.O

*~ yu ~*

*~ F!sh sCale's w0rld ~*

*Hada Labo*

suX !

年。新

~_~

*to-do-list*

担心

^^

烦啊

怀念~

幼稚

真不明白。。

==

为什么?

无能。

w.t.h. why? think? hell?

烦_烦"

why why why??

so in ♥ ....

=/

i dunno... duno dunooo.. dunnnoooo..

一点点.. 不开心..

累。

某名...

がんばって

gan jiong week~

T_T

+ u lorh~

^^V

hate me.

photos from memory land~

sniff sniff..

=/

摘自fb..

...

adolescence nowadys.. =="

week 7?

aikz..

aww.. it's week 4 soon~ >?<"

i wanna~~

sem break is comin to an end~

aduii~ >?<"

yr2 s1 = ENDED!!

又来一个这样的夜晚..

闭气

一些些。。

=/

o囧o

。 。 。

u can never understand sth if u never experience it before..

=s

>?<"

RMWD~

eeeek...

='(

final =_____="

pic of 1day trip~

1 day trip~ ^^

watever~

hmm..

im pisssssed off!!

顺其自然？

Q(~_~#)Q

last weekend~

jia you.

my buddies~ ♥

haiz..

生日派对~ ^^

就酱。。

胡思乱想？=/

*~ rainbow~*

~ F!sh sCale's w0rld ~

Hada Labo

to-do-list

why　why　why??

。。。

生日派对~　^^

~ rainbow~